December 05, 2011
i've kinda been going a mile a minute lately.
blogging, singing, writing, playing music, planning parties, networking, making new friends, keeping up with old ones, teaching lessons, launching a kickstarter, planning an ep release, visiting family, taking pictures, arranging sponsorships, trying to make rent every month....
i love it all. i do. but i just push myself too far sometimes, i guess.
or rather, i do know my limits- due to all the experiences over the years of running myself into the ground, and eventually breaking. it's just sometimes, there really isn't a choice.
like this weekend, for example. i knew i was getting a cold and should be taking care of myself. but i had planned a house concert with some friends- at my house! i spent the whole of saturday running around, picking up amps, buying liquor and supplies, re-arranging furniture.
then at night, i had the pleasure of being a host AND a performer. which was lovely, but does come with its own set of challenges and stressors. also, my throat was raw from being sick... but the show had to go on! i forced myself to sing, anyway.
i woke up the next morning hurting and barely able to speak. but rushed off to teach a lesson (no sick days for freelancers!) then back home to clean up after the party. i could barely look at the computer afterwards, to answer all the emails and comments that had accumulated during the past few days.
i really don't mean this post as a rant. but whenever i fall out of step with the internet world for even a few days, i feel like i've missed so much. you know? also, i want all you wonderful readers to know that my life isn't a sepia-tinted fairy tale... it's an easy misconception to think that... especially in blogging (and music.) everything takes a lot of work!!
can any of you relate at all? do you ever feel bad about missing a few days? falling out of step? not answering comments in a timely manner?
friends! i made a new music ep and am looking for help getting it funded! visit my kickstarter page to find out more and donate :)
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