i feel like it's been awhile since we had a real heart-to-heart. you know? thought we'd settle in with an iced tea & sandwich, brought to you by kave cafe...
the things i'm about to say are part of the reason i felt that i needed to step back from blogging and social media for a bit. i mean... it's the month of my EP release. i should've been blogging and twittering all over the place. but i couldn't bring myself to do it. my mind was screaming for a break.
and i'll be honest... i'm actually a little scared to write this, for fear of being labled as "omgnegative!" but it's something that i feel needs to be said.
mainly... the internet has been exhausting me lately.
i read a lot of blogs.
it sure seems like a lot of the people who write these blogs have perfect lives. i see so much dreamy photography, and hear so much about so-and-so's perfect marriage/ wedding/ baby... and darnit if i don't get the feeling that some of these girls just frolic around in cute outfits, making cute baked goods, and doing cute diy's all day long.
i mean yeah... i can't deny, i love it all. i do. but don't you just get sick of it sometimes?
the unspoken agreement of having an "internet persona" is that it's only okay to share the positive facets of one's life. writing about stress, real-life situations, and "negativity' are big no-no's. but why? isn't there a balance somewhere?
in a way, i feel like many blogs are to modern gals, what magazines were to ladies of yore. the new martha stewart, good housekeeping, and cosmo- and there's a reason why women flock to them. however, they are also designed to keep women forever reaching for unattainable standards... keep them in a cycle of never feeling good enough about themselves, so that they'll keep buying the magazines and products they tell them to.
and i totally get it. posts like the one you're reading right now aren't the ones that bring in the pageviews for me... it's the outfits, diy's, and food porn that does. people love looking at pretty images. and you know what? so do i!
i loooove poring through lovely photos on pinterest! i love reading about amazing and exotic trips. but at the same time, i do frequently get frustrated that my life isn't this way. not even close.
but the part that gets me, is that i realize i'm part of it. through a lot of my content, i'm totally guilty of promoting an idyllic lifestyle which is unattainable to many people. it's a lifestyle that's not even real or sustainable for 99% of people.
as much as i love taking and looking at pretty photos- they are not reality. reality is reality. it is in the small little moments unspoken. reality is very rarely captured in any medium, aside from in the minds of the people who are living it.
so what of it?
am i going to give up reading the blogs i that love? nope. no one's perfect, and i think it's okay to love a blog, while disagreeing with it sometimes.
am i going to change my content? not sure. i find that people love looking at those outfits/ diy's/ etc. just as much as i love posting them.
i realize that i'm relatively small potatoes in both the blogging and music worlds, and what i do or say probably doesn't make a difference to many people. i've just been struggling with what i've been posting, as opposed to what's actually been going on in my life.
and i know no one needs to share everything. and i don't want to. i guess it's just easier to take a picture and say "look at what i made/ wore," than actually sharing something meaningful. and maybe that's okay... until it's not. where the line is crossed, who knows.
that said, i think i'll be back to a full schedule of outfits, diy's, music, cats, and food this week :P
yes, i'm a bit of a hypocrite, but aren't we all...