one of my favorite dresses...
oh yes, and also. today is my birthday.
i want to step out of the happy/ decadent theme of the week to discuss what this means to me a little bit, and possibly go off on a little feminist rant :P
you see, i've been having some anxiety about this birthday, as aging is such a big no-no for women in our culture. it doesn't matter that it's inevitable, or that everyone in the history of time has gotten old and died at some point. women must somehow learn how to stave off the physical effects of aging for as long as possible, in order to remain sexually desirable, and thus, have more value and bargaining power in society.
maybe living in nyc (home of beauty and shallowness) has made me overly sensitive to the topic. either way, subtly and not-so-subtly, people are told that the older a person gets (especially a woman), the less valuable they are. i once had a boss tell me that women "depreciate" as they get older. like a car. just one more person doing her part to make sure that younger generations would feel the fear of those ever-persistent birthdays just as much as she did. the way she still does.
but i had a revelation this weekend... and that revelation is that no matter how old i get, or how physically imperfect i am in the eyes of society, i really could give two big poops about it.
#1) it's all lies, and #2) all that matters- ALL that matters is love.
i'm not even talking about romantic love... but universal love. i think that no matter what kind of "imperfection" someone has, if they have a loving spirit, it shines through brighter than any other physical quality. when your spirit is fed, it makes you radiant. it's how everyone starts out. life will try to erode it away. never, never, never let that happen.
it might be corny, but i believe love is the best kept beauty secret.
and despite all the messages telling me i should be ashamed of myself for daring to stay alive one more year in this world... i kinda think i've never been hotter :)
and that is that.
happy birthday to me :)
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