January 16, 2013
A few days ago, a lady on the train with mint green nails caught my eye. It reminded me that that's my favorite color, so I copied random-train-lady, and painted my nails the same. It's Mint Candy Apple by Essie. I know it's not a "winter" color. And I know it's not the best paint job. It never is. I'm a pretty sloppy nail painter, if I do say so. But looking at my hands now makes me happy.
I sat on my windowsill and did my nails while looking out at my street, and it was the frigging best feeling. For no particular reason. It just was. I have chronic anxiety and stress... So moments like these are unexpected, beautiful, and such a relief.
I wish I could explain it... and I guess capturing these moments is what this blog is supposed to be all about. But no matter how many inspiring images I post, it doesn't come close to those quiet few minutes I experienced with myself and the Universe. Real life. And maybe real life is un-captureable. Something simple as sitting on a windowsill is all the healing I'll ever need. And the joy it brings is something I'll never be able to fully express.
I guess even if I tried to explain, only I'll ever know what my sloppy painted nails meant to me. Maybe it's better that way. That way, the moment will always be mine. Maybe it's not meant to be shared.
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